Thursday, February 26, 2009

Do you ever wonder.....

- Why there are times, sometimes for weeks on end, when you are content to sit in your shell, hidden away, asking nothing of anyone, and then all of the sudden this inexplicable urge pulls you, like a one-ton ox pulling its cart, to connect to anyone that will listen?

- Where the unrelenting compulsion to grow comes from? To be more today than you were yesterday, to notice more details in life today than you did yesterday, to appreciate this breath a little more than you appreciated the last one, to be more alive now than you were "back then?"

- What 'time' really is? What it really means to be alive? About the difference between existence and living?

- Whether or not you will ever come to understand yourself? Truly understand who and what you are, after subtracting all the stories you've accepted, consciously and unconsciously, about yourself since the day you were born?

- Who you will be twenty years from now? Who you were 23 seconds after you were born? And where those two "you" overlap?

Do you ever wonder? Are you ever amazed at all of the coincidences and miracles that must have come together at just the right times and moments for you to be, at all the twists and turns that must have occurred for you to end up who you are?

Do you ever wonder? About everything? The big picture? About nothing? The same picture with no stories attached?

Do you ever wonder why?

1 comment:

Unknown said...

All the time!! -- I wonder WHY.

Also...I wonder at the day, at the birds that wake me up with their chirping, at the rabbit that surprised me outside my door this evening, at the sky with sunset draping her vibrant colors, at the sun, at Life, at people - the ones I know, the ones I just see glimpses of, the ones I want to know. I wonder at myself, at this world, at the future, at God.